| shawn ♥ |
no one sees what they saw anymore.
hello, I have moved. |
Sunday, December 17, 2006
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i saw the message you typed her and i had the urge t purge. too damn bad. sorry baby if you find this post unfair & offensive since i resorted t crude yankeng colloquialism. but i think the best thing t have my thoughts be unleashed is blogging.'aw man, sorry for the late reply. i was having the usual tiff w my gf. bummer i wasn't there t console you. .......... ahahhha don't be afraid Amber! cuz i am here! ........... haha hugs and goodnight!' time: 04:00AM. how smart. what'd you send me before you send her that msg? 'hey baby, tonight i deeply regret what i felt, what my mood was, what i said, what i did not say. i love you darling. i hope you'd forgive me for every night that had turned out like that. darling burned within the deepest innermost heart of mine beats steadily for you and only you, i can't live without you, i'd be like a mad dog if ever i were t lose you. goodnight love. i love you mwah!' time: 03:57AM were you even sad in the latter message? that's funny if you were. oh fancy telling me i was bummed cuz i was talking t 7 guys(only 4 cuz i ignored e other 3),i said 'i miss you' t my bestie and this 'i miss you' thing was months ago. i've told you many times not t bring up the past when we argue. i was wrong. i'm sorry. but am i doing any shit t you right now? if you couldn't forgive what i did last time, then don't even say 'never mind', left me thinking everything was settled. don't tell me you're doing this cuz i did it last time. cuz if you did forgive me, you wouldn't have done this. cuz you forgave me and retaliating this time doesn't make any fucking radical sense. what does 'never mind' mean t you? the thought of that message just makes me so sick. so sick that i wanna gag so terribly all over you. you know what baby. yes i still love you & yes i still trust you. i'll make you what i never was. you'll make up for what i blew. |